I’m pregnant, you may know this already. ☺ I’m now going to complain about being pregnant. You may wish to not read. I wouldn’t be offended.
So I just have to start by saying that I really don’t have much to complain about. While pregnancy totally blows for me, neither me or my baby’s life has ever been in danger and that is something HUGE to be thankful for. I do recognize that a lot of people, some who I know and love, can’t say that. So I am in fact aware that I shouldn’t be complaining. Just so you know.
I am so sick all the time. My tummy issues are vastly inflamed by pregnancy and I rarely have a day, half a day, or a few hour period even where I feel okay. Me and the potty are buddies. Good buddies.
I have this thing. I vaguely remember it from being pregnant with Traegan. My heart feels like it beats so hard. I can feel it in my fingers and toes and tummy all the time, the way you can when you have a cut or something. With Traegan, my doctor had me drink a half a gallon of water a day, which I’m doing, but it’s a little different this pregnancy. I’m also feeling like I’m on the verge of passing out like 90% of the time. And I’m really prone to overheating. I know they all seem like separate things, but somehow they all compile on each other and I’m ALWAYS dizzy. I ALWAYS feel like I’m going to fall over. It’s rather annoying. I’m not able to get ANYTHING done because I always feel like I’m falling over. And this past week, I blacked out while driving. Scary and not cool. Now I’m just terrified that is going to happen all the time. I have found the silver lining to not having a car since now I’m kind of freaked to drive.
And new with this pregnancy… acne. Yep. I look like a pubescent teen and have since about a month into this pregnancy. Hence the lack of pictures. I meant to take lots of pictures this pregnancy and I wish I had because I feel like I’m doing better huge-ness wise than I was with Trae, but then I look in the mirror. My hair has been in a gross ponytail for 6 months. Every time it comes out of a ponytail for more than an hour, I get a fresh crop of red bumps in my hairline. Anyway, that is really annoying.
I never sleep. Trae is the worst sleeper in the world and that is one problem, but every time I wake up with him, I cannot get back to sleep. My brain automatically starts stressing about my ever growing to-do list and I can’t turn it off. Then I’m up so long I have to eat something. Then when by miracle of miracles I get to sleep, I have some crazy nightmare dream that seems so real it wakes me up and we start all over. Also, I’m having a really hard time telling my dreams from reality lately. A few weekends ago I literally was dialing the phone to remind Josh to do something that he didn’t need to do, I just dreamed it. So, I’m basically insane.
And I think that is about it. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, hopefully I can get some answers/help for the blacking out and dizzy, but other than that… just counting down the days until this awfulness turns into a tiny, squishy, pink princess!